Homework. I left that behind once and then I had
kids. Once they were old enough that I
couldn’t help them with their homework because I didn’t have a clue, I was done
with homework again. So why would I
willingly put myself back into a situation where I’m doing homework, my own
this time, again?
My
original plan was to go from undergrad to grad right away. Then life intervened. I talked with a prof in those days who told
me that as long as I was open to learning I’d always be a student. I think he was right but that insight became
all the excuse I needed to let the study I was interested in give way to the job
I needed.
And
then years went by and then decades and it became much harder to convince
myself that going back was even an option.
Just
over a year ago I came to a “dark night of the soul” that lasted a whole season. In the midst of that process there came some
clarity. I was searching for answers
about my future and I was coming up empty.
Piece by piece I was getting disassembled, it felt like God was taking
my world apart. In the midst of great
uncertainty came this one clear step: go back to school.
I
like to think that my undergraduate studies have taken me 30 years to complete. I know there’s a depth in my reading that
didn’t exist 3 decades ago. Life has
given me some perspective that I seriously lacked when I was 20. Suffering, disappointment, relationships,
unexpected satisfaction, grace and hurt have all marked this road I travel
on. For me, now is the time and though
it’s 30 years late(r), I’m ready for it again for the first time. Besides, how long is too long to wait for a
dream to come true?
Thanks to all my friends who are helping me on this journey!
Thanks to all my friends who are helping me on this journey!
You're probably able to appreciate the education much more at this time in your life. Like you said, the life experience has given you depth and perspective that might have lacked all those years ago. I'm excited for you!
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